First off...Merry Christmas :/ So I have started o' so many of these....blogs, journals, diaries, ect. And none of them have stuck. I am going to try my hardest to keep this one going though. Just for my own sanity. lol.
Anywho, I suppose I will start my first post with my "All about me" section. Well, my name is Lisa and I am 27 years old (28 in a month from yesterday). I am a single parent of a beautiful little 3 year old named Makenzie Anne. She really has been one major things that has shaped me into the person I am today. And I am a true single parent in that my daughters father has nothing to do with her...which is totally fine with me and I will discuss why in a separate blog. I just don't have the energy right now to explain...yes its that bad. Another thing that has shaped who I am as a person today was the passing of my mother two years ago. She had breast cancer and that is a whole nother story for another time.
But as of now I am currently living with my father in the same house I grew up in since I was 4 years old. Very weird none the less. And my "awesome" sister lives here as well. You will probably get alot of blogs about her because well...she is one of my main sources of stress. I mean for the most part we are definately closer now than we ever were growing up but she still irritates the hell out of me :-/
I am currently in nursing school. I would like to say that I am almost done but I had to miss two clinical days this semester because my daughter was sick (and my family are jackholes). So now I have to retake my second semester over. Which I suppose if I had to retake any semester, this one would be as good as any. Simply because there is so much information and what we are learning are the basic building blocks for the rest of our careers basically. Plus we only have 10 weeks to learn it in so you basically study for one test and then forget it all by the end of that test. Plus it only puts my graduation date back 3 months so its not to bad. And I have a fabulous group of ladies that I will be retaking the class with. Well that doesn't sound very good but if I had to retake with anyone these girls would be at the top of my list :) Especially since my nursing bff will still be with me!!! So now I study the same material I had and hopefully on January 10th (the first day back) I will actually feel prepared for once.
Also being a single parent can be super lonely. I mean I live with my dad and sister but lets get serious, they are only concerned with their own lives. I know they love my daughter and all but if something isn't working for them all hell breaks lose around here. I do all the cooking, cleaning, laundry ect. Plus school and raise my daughter. My dad helps out financhially but really that only goes so far because I feel like I am being kept prisoner around here.
I finally started "dating" again. Man what a crap hole this shit is!!! For one my family definately doesn't help out with babysitting so I can actually go and then they give me crap for always "leaving" Kenzie with someone. On a side note I have only gone out like once a week if that...and that was only for 4 weeks while I was "dating" this jerk. I never really realized how hard dating actually is as an adult. As a "kid" it was way easier..lol. At this point and time though I really feel it is time for me to get out there and find someone who will support me since I have very few people who do. I mean not that I don't have anybody, I have great friends and some good family (in Montana) that support me, but it is different when you have a partner who will support you. So now along with all the housework, studying and parenting, I have thrown myself into the dating scene as well. Mostly by dating websites because obviously it is just to hard to get out and meet someone right now. So yeah....thats about it for now.
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