Well at least I have posted two days in a row...LOL. Anywho today was all about Wii day! I finally got a Wii with the Christmas money from my dad and my daughters Christmas money. Don't worry..the Wii is for both of us. And I bought her two games to my one :) She had a blast playing this afternoon.
Night time is the worst for me though. I know I probably should be studying for school right now but instead I spent my evening trolling around plenty of fish and eharmony. I don't know what I am so lonely right now. I suppose its the holidays and being off school. I mean I'm not freaking because I have a test or anything right now so I have a lot of time to sit and think.
I know I should be thankful for all that I have (and I truely am) but I have always wanted to be someones wife and have my own family. I just feel like I am stuck in a never ending cycle right now. I do see a light at the end of the tunnel now though and it begins in March of 2012. To me that can't come soon enough though. Then the big decisions have to be made. Stay here in Michigan with my family or move to Montana where I seem to be appreciated more. My mom's side of the family lives there and they are the ones I always call when I need a pick me up. They love me for who I am and what I am doing to better my life. Everyone here seems to think they do the same but I really don't feel the love :( I really could see myself living in Montana but everyone here seems to think it would crush my immediate family here if I did so.
I know they love my daughter but seriously why can't I be happy for once. I only seem to get ridiculed around here. Oh well. Still have over a year to decide i guess.
Well I suppose I should get to bed since little miss sunshine seems to get up way early these days.....
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